Sometimes Starting is the Hardest Part

You may notice that my last blog post was almost 2 years ago. We all know the story by now, March 2020 was the start of the pandemic. It was a time of uncertainty, kids at home, lots of news watching to try and figure out what is going on, and more cocktails than i can count, or at least this was the case in our house. But it was also the time when I stopped a lot of things that I had previously been doing. Going out for walks with friends, grocery shopping during the day, etc. etc. Many of those things have returned in full force and then some, but some things, like blogging, have not. I have spent months (a year??) feeling guilty about not checking my website, writing any new blog posts, sending out a regular newsletter, and yet despite a heavy dose of guilt, until now I hadn’t done anything about it.

It is so easy to get stuck in the cycle of feeling guilty about what we are not getting done, but that doesn’t actually get us any closer to getting started. So, I spent a session with my coach last week trying to figure out why I wasn’t motivated to get started.We talked about a lot, mostly helping me realize how guilty I felt and how the guilt was becoming a bigger wall to surmount, making it even harder to accomplish my goals. Ultimately the only thing holding me back was myself, so I decided I just had to start again. And that’s it. No fanfare or fireworks, sometimes, you just need to sit down and start.